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My Year in (Un)used Notebooks

I see all your oddly specific 2024 recaps and I raise you with this one about notebooks.

I am the first to admit I have a bit of a stationary obsession. When I feel stressed, I love to go to P.W. Akkerman on the Langebrugsteeg in Amsterdam, just to look at the various notebooks and index cards they have for sale. I always have to restrain myself for not buying one when I visit, and sometimes I succeed at that. There is just something so promising about getting a new notebook, and thinking of all the ways you could make notes in it to declutter your mind.

Here are, in rough chronological order, some notebooks I bought or used in 2024. And yes, they are mostly dotted Leuchtturm1917 notebooks, and no, they are not all from P.W. Akkerman. (But never ordered online!)

Leuchtturm Classic Medium (A5) "Rising Sun"

Dotted, 251 pages, hardcover, 80g/m²
Technically I bought this orange/yellow one in 2023. It was in cellophane in my bag when some person broke the passenger window of my car, trying to get my laptop out of it, on the last day of the year. The thief must have touched it, for it was in the laptop compartment, but they threw the bag – notebook included – back into my car when they noticed there was no laptop.

On 1 January, I opened the cellophane and started writing a long form diary in it. There was a lot on my mind at that time, and I had a lot of free time (the company I worked for just went bankrupt), so I wrote down my thoughts in tiny handwriting. I used the first 61 pages in January, up to page 130 in february and stopped on page 161 at the end of March. Then a few pages with entries of September, October, November. In December I really picked it up again and I am now at page 210.

Leuchtturm Classic Paperback (B6+) "Stone Blue"

Dotted, 123 pages, soft cover, 80g/m²
I honestly don't remember if I bought this one this year, but I think so. Either way, I did not write a single thing it in, even though it is out of the cellophane.

Bloc Rhodia Nº 16 (dotpad, A5, ringed)

Dotted, 80g/m²
This is technically not a notebook, but more a notepad. It's by my knowledge the only dotted notepad on the market, and the paper is nice. I already had the same sized dotpad Nº 16 without rings, but I wanted a new one because I wanted to take notes and work, and the lined notepads they provided were just not up to my taste.

I never really pulled out any paper of it, so I know the first sheet is dated 4 March 2024, as that was my first day at work. Sometimes I did write down a date. The last written pages contain notes from my first D&D sessions as a DM, in May 2024.

Leuchtturm Classic Pocket (A6) "Fox Red"

Dotted, 123 pages, soft cover, 80g/m²
Again one of those I don't know for sure I bought in 2024, but at least I started using it last year. The first page has notes about a D&D session in which I played the character Voks, on 11 May. This was a session with a Eurovision theme, and I'm glad I have some paper notes of it. That was also the purpose of this book for me: notes about RPGs, so that I can avoid using the Rhodia dotpad for it.

The book also contains notes about sessions of Pirate Borg, Mausritter, Delta Green and goes as recently as 6 November for a session of Cloud Empress. There is a folded sheet of Rhodia dotpad paper in it with a rudimentary character sheet for my Cloud Empress character "Bloody". I will try to continue using this book for specifically this purpose of RPG notes in 2025.

Moleskine Cahier Pocket Black

Ruled, three cahiers, 70g/m²
This is the beginning of a little graveyard. Between May and August, I was compiling a portable DM-kit: a set of tokens and cards I can use as a Dungeon Master / story teller during RPG sessions. For this, I bought a small case that's originally intended to house a portable hard drive, and I stuffed it to the brim with pencils, wooden game components and index cards. (I will not include all the index cards I bought in this post.)

For this purpose, I also got a new set of these Moleskine cahiers. I have a lot of them, in various states of being written in, so I just wanted some more. My perfectionism decided at the time that there was a better option out there, so I did not end up using them.

Leuchtturm Jottbook Double (A6) "Light Grey / Black"

Dotted, two cahiers of 59 pages, flex cover, 80g/m²
These two nice dotted cahiers did fit perfectly in the aforementioned hard drive case. But what is more: they have more pages (I think, the Moleskine is unnumbered) and they have dots! As you might have noticed, I love dotted notebooks.

I just looked at the two now: the Light Grey one is unwritten, the Black one has a few unclear notes, written in one session I DM'ed. But hey, they are more perfect!

Bloc Rhodia Nº 18 (dotpad, A4)

Dotted, 80g/m²
I know, I keep going back and forth. This is again more a notepad, but somewhere in the same timeframe I bought it because as a DM, I wanted to write my notes on big dotted paper that would lay flat behind my DM-screen. Hence the A4 dotpad, no rings this time.

Leuchtturm Classic Paperback (B6+) "Black"

Dotted, 219 pages, hard cover, 80g/m²
This one I bought because I wanted a notebook to write in at work again. Previously I had been using the Rhodia dotpad for that purpose, but I disliked the fact that I was using a notepad as a notebook. If you never pull out the pages, why not have it bound? Also: I wasn't really taking notes at all anymore at that point, and I wanted to change that.

I started at the end of July and used a whopping 6 pages of the notebook, as I broke my foot in the beginning of August, which in turn changed a lot of habits around work, most notably the fact that I had to work from home for a while.

At the end of November, I bought the book The Bullet Journal Method by Ryder Caroll, which made me want to start one. Since I only used the first six pages of this notebook (making it therefore already imperfect), it became the perfect starting point for me. It has been my Bullet Journal all throughout December and I just started January 2025 on page 48.

Leuchtturm × Bullet Journal: Pocket (A5) Black

Custom dotted, three cahiers of 46 pages, flex cover, 80g/m²
I just had to instantly buy this the moment I saw it lying down at P.W. Akkerman. It's a set of three small booklets with dotted pages, but with the special extra dots at the middle of the page, so you can easily divide the page in two by drawing a line through those. And maybe their most distinct feature: they are designed to use sideways, in landscape orientation.

I haven't used a single one of these... they just look too pretty. But I am sure that this partly influenced me to (again) look at the Bullet Journal method, even though it was months after the purchase.

Leuchtturm Classic Pocket (A6) "Stone Blue"

Ruled, 187 pages, hard cover, 80g/m²
Yes, you read it correct: ruled. I bought this small book for a specific purpose: I wanted to work out a bit more and wanted to log exactly what exercises I did during that. Some Youtuber recommended using "an ugly cheap notebook" for this, so I went with the ruled version.

I instantly hated it. I don't really comprehend how the same company that makes the best dotted notebooks of all time, can also make a ruled notebook with the annoying text 'DATUM/DATE' on top of every page. As if every day takes up exactly one page? Sometimes I have more to write, sometimes I can fit three days on one page. Leave me alone!

I have here workouts from 23 September to 16 December. It even went to Gran Canaria with me. 16 December does mean that I fell off the wagon a bit, and to that I will admit. I have been doing undocumented workouts, but writing this bit makes me realize I should return to this humble booklet.

Leuchtturm Classic Paperback (B6+) "Port Red"

Dotted, 219 pages, hard cover, 80g/m²
I distinctly remember buying this one after I broke my foot, at the local Athenaeum Boekhandel here in Bijlmer, because I believe I bought it while in the wheelchair. There was also a bundle of stories by queer people that I bought with it. I recently rediscovered the unopened paper bag with the two inside in a pile in my living room.

The notebook is still in cellophane and I think I will use it as a future Bullet Journal once my current one fills up. (I only rediscovered this one when I already started using the black one, but I think picking the black one was the right choice anyway.)

Leuchtturm × Bullet Journal: 2nd Edition (A5)

Custom dotted, 206+ pages, hard cover, 120g/m²
No. I did not in fact buy this one, nor will I in the near future. In the past, I might have done it, but my current Bullet Journal includes a list of "to impulse buy" at a later date in the month, which successfully kept me off on this one. I love the custom dots, I love to support the original creator of the method, but no, I think 120g/m² is just way too heavy paper for my needs. The page count is quite a bit lower than the classic Leuchtturm, and I still find the book just too bulky.

Monthly Digest, December 2024

Since I broke my foot on the 4th of August, I've been writing weekly notes about what happened in my life. I must admit I mostly wrote it for myself. On the 1st of December I started a paper Bullet Journal (a minimalist and functional one), which I might blog more about this month. Since I started with that, I struggled to keep up the weekly notes on top of the journal. So therefore I now follow suit with Henrique's habit and start a Monthly Digest. Let's see if I can make it to 12.

Health

Let start with what made me start the weekly notes: my foot. I think I still make progress, but progress is slow. Last month I had still a lot of soreness and even a bit of pain in the mornings. I am still experiencing a bit of that, but it has diminished so much that I don't really want to call the morning feeling "pain" anymore. I still don't dare to run though.

I've been walking on barefoot shoes all month, so that's still going strong after almost four months. In addition to new Injinji toe socks, I also got a cute little stool for Christmas. I use it to sit on while at home, but at the moment of writing I'm sitting on the floor on a small cushion, with my laptop on the stool. I'm very pleased with the setup.

The goal of floorsitting is to increase my mobility. I noticed that my lotus pose is really improving, for example. Another thing I did and tracked in the Bullet Journal: every single day of December I did a forward stretch. In November I could not touch my toes while keeping my legs straight, and now I can. I will continue to stretch in the new year.

The training of my arms got a bit of a hit during Christmas time, but I did notice how much easier some of the exercises became, so I'm not demotivated to continue that too.

Life

In my Bullet Journal I now keep a list of every day of the month, with a one-line summary of the day, which gives me a very neat overview of what happened.

The weekend I stopped my weekly notes was actually the weekend I went away to Appelscha with friends, for a weekend of boardgames and Hunnebed-viewing. There were other boardgame nights too, notably the night that I played three games of Root and the night were we played Blood on the Clocktower at G.'s house with 11 people and G. as our beloved story teller.

It was of course also a month of family happenings. Aside from the obvious ones, on 21 December I went to Den Haag for the opening of the exposition of new members of Pulchri. My mom is one of them, and I was very happy I could attend for this special moment for her.

I also survived both my second month at my new job, as well as our kerstborrel, so that's nice.

Reading

I'm still reading The Name of the Wind by Patrick Rothfuss, as I have been since mid July. It's just a big book and since Gran Canaria in October I have had my mind on other things (such as my new job). It's a really good book though, so I will continue reading. I'm now at chapter seventy-three, so I am nearing the end. (I know, and then there is a second book if I want to.)

I did finish Polysecure by Jessica Fern this month. I am still not sure if I identify as polyamorous, but the book is more about attachment theory (which I value) and non-monogamy in general (which, by lack of a partner, I am). I really liked her approach of not defaulting to "you should find The One" as a solution to all problems and the book was very helpful to me. Recommend reading to anyone, including those in monogamous relationships.

I also finished The Bullet Journal Method by Ryder Caroll, which I started on the well timed date of 30 November. This meant that the next day, I started a Bullet Journal in an "old" Leuchtturm 1917 dotted notebook on 1 December. It's an interesting read, even though I already knew the method before. There's enough reflection in there that I might want to reread it in 6 months time. (Yes, I just added that to my Future Log.)

Finally, I started in Radical Acceptance by Tara Brach, but I didn't make enough progress to talk about it this month.

Intentions

I wanted to add this to Henrique's template: my intentions for the next month. As I stated before: I want to continue stretching and working out. I would also like to focus a bit more on eating healthy too, as I notice I have more energy the following day if I do. (I won't publicly describe how bad my current habits are here.)

On my habit tracker for this month I also added "reading". My new job allows me to travel by public transport a bit more, which gives me a good solid 20 + 20 minutes of reading. On the habit tracker I will just add a check mark if I read any page at all, at any place. Let's see if that helps me finish The Name of the Wind.

Some people think the phrase "the most wonderful time of the year" refers to Christmas, but in reality it refers to both the last and the first week of the year. In this period, you will discover all your code and flaky tests that make assumptions about the beginning and/or ending of the week being in the same year as today.

2024 in boardgames

Like last year, I noticed that I just don't play enough music to make a worthwhile overview of my year in music. This year also, weird things happen in my playlists. Hans Zimmer is my top artist of the year because I played one session of D&D with a Hans Zimmer essentials playlist in the background.

So why not share my boardgames? I record every game I play (via an app) and therefore I know exactly what I played last year.

I have recorded 400 plays this year, of 150 different games, of which 107 were new to me. I have played with 219 different people at 25 locations, and my H-index is 7, meaning that I played 7 different games at least 7 times. Tuesday is the day of the week I play the most, but that doesn't surprise me.

My top games, in terms of times played, are:

  • Cheese Thief (21 times), a staple at Boardgayming
  • Hanabi (19 times), as A. stayed over during January and we aimed for a perfect score, which we got once
  • Codenames (16 times), also a staple because you can play it with big groups that change shape
  • Skull (15 times), great starter of the evening, bluffing game, easy to explain to beginners
  • Secret Hitler (12 times), because they love it at Boardgayming
  • Hidden Leaders (9 times), cute game I bought for the 'social deduction', even though it is not really that
  • Cat in the Box (7 times), cool twist on the normal trick taking game, where cards have no color until you play them
  • Cubitos (7 times), nice push-your-luck racing game
  • Frosthaven (7 times), because yes, I am in a campaign
  • Mascarade (7 times), a game about remembering everybody's role and bluffing about your own

But I also really want to mention:

  • Root (6 times), because I would love to play it right now to push it to the top 10
  • Scout (4 times), another cool twist on trick taking games (also see 9 Lives)
  • Crash Octopus (1 time), very physical game, which is great after a very heavy strategy game
  • Super Kawaii Pets (3 times), cute combo game in a small box, about making pets happy
  • Sky Team (2 times), the best two player game of the moment, makes me sad for not having a partner
  • Blood on the Clocktower (2 times), only played this this week, and I don't like social deduction that much, but this is a really good one (kuddos to G., our fabulous host and story teller)

Looking forward to play more games in 2025!

Week 18

I would say it's tired chaos, but I want to be less negative about it.

Happened

  • I'm at that spot in the new job where you kind of get up to steam, so expectations (certainly my own) are raised, but you aren't actually well oiled enough to be super productive already. It's very frustrating, as it feels like I am throwing away my days, but I guess it's more about getting to know a new codebase. Patience and (self)compassion are key.
  • One of the things I keep pouring time in, is a new keyboard layout for my split keyboard. I seriously doubt it's worth it at all, but I have a blogpost lined up about it, which I hope to post soon.
  • The other blogpost I want to write is about barefoot shoes (again), because Sunday marked the three-month point of wearing them almost exclusively, and they shaped my feet in the promised ways, so I want to evangelize.
  • The soreness of my formerly broken foot still knows it's up and downs, but there are more good days than bad days now. I'm pretty sure I will run again, but also pretty sure it's still not going to be next week.
  • In addition to the barefoot shoes, I am also trying to sit on the floor more, and doing a lot of stretching. I am just an average immobile tall Dutch person, and I want to be more flexible. I can kind of touch my toes now when bending forward with locked knees, so that's cool. The training of my arms also pays off: this week I noticed a few times how much more strength I have in daily life.
  • Saturday I also sat on the floor at G.'s house, for the Sinterklaas evening of dobbelspel. I went home with a plant, a set of polyhedral dice, the Dutch version of Fluxx and a Lego piñata animal, so that's not a bad score at all. The game itself was also a lot of fun, as G. has played this before and compiled a really good ruleset for it.

Played

  • Frosthaven

Read

  • Polysecure by Jessica Fern
  • The Bullet Journal Method by Ryder Caroll

The subtitle of The Bullet Journal Method is "Track Your Past, Order Your Present, Plan Your Future", and I can't help but think of "to order" in it's other meaning, so it becomes a how to guide on dictatorship: "Plan Your Past, Track Your Present, Order Your Future".

Week 17

Keeping it short this week.

Happened

  • Where I closed last week with progress and the hopes on running, this week was back to pain. No big pain, I can still walk, but enough uneasiness to have to postpone running by still a little while.
  • Took a lot of metro, almost no biking, but there were walks. Apple Health complains about a trend of less calories burned. Stopped tracking my calorie intake and that might contribute to my bad mood, as I eat whatever again, which is not always healthy.
  • Started a Bullet Journal in the notebook I tried to use for work at Solarclarity and kept up for two weeks in July, until I broke my foot on the 3rd of August. Resisted the urge to buy a fresh notebook and just used that one by starting at page 7. Will see how that book and these week notes will integrate. So far it feels like it lifts the mood a bit.

Played

  • Hitster: Summer Party
  • Boss Battle

Read

  • The Bullet Journal Method by Ryder Carroll (part I and II)

Week 16

Foot is healing.

Happened

  • My foot is doing so much better now. This week, I stopped biking and started taking the metro to all places. Less exercise, one could say, but no, it made me walk much more. Walking from Bijlmer to the city center and back is not really doable, but the metro never stops in front of your destination, so it’s a good way to get your steps in and train your foot.
  • If this upward progress stays, I'll start doing short runs the week after the coming week. On Sunday I ran 20 meters to the metro on barefoot shoes and I feel fine, so I have good hopes.
  • I had two birthdays of friends this week, which I really enjoyed.
  • At work I went into a bit of a rabbit hole regarding PHPStan and resolving dynamic code with generic types, but maybe that’s a topic for another blogpost.
  • Another blogpost I wanted to write this week (but not going to anymore): I dreamed I was driving in a car, that just stopped to exist when I had to stop on the highway for some reason. Then, I couldn’t get enough speed (because I can’t run with my foot) to get my hypothetical car back, and therefore I was kind of stuck at the side of the highway. The police actually arrested me for this, as they didn’t really buy my story about my hypothetical car. I then later wrote a blogpost about it all, but I couldn’t get it to post, because I noticed I was dreaming. I then proceeded to write a blogpost about hypothetical blogposts just after I woke up, but I couldn’t post that either, as I turned out to be still dreaming. At some point I managed to actually wake up and write just enough words in my draft file for this post to actually deliver this description to you here. I promise you I am okay.

Played

  • Command of Nature
  • Power Hungry Pets
  • Carcassonne
  • Decrypto
  • Super Kawaii Pets

Read

  • Polysecure by Jessica Fern (almost finished part 2)

Week 15

I am doing okay, but I feel like things are all over the place.

Happened

  • My foot behaved weirdly. I switched from the medical sturdy sandal to the normal sturdy shoes. My discomfort increased enormously, to the point I would certainly call "pain". But it didn't seem logical to me that my bone healing would take this much of deterioration, that I would need another week in the sturdy sandal. So I made up my own mind again and switched back to the barefoot shoes. Honestly, I feel stiffness in my foot, but this is so much better than the pain in the sturdy shoes. I am now back to treating the discomfort as something I have to push through.
  • The second part of the week, therefore, I am actively touching the (in the morning) painful parts of my foot, massaging directly on top of the fracture. It seems to work, at least the morning pain goes away that way. It is scary to play my own doctor and physiotherapist so much, but I since I wasn't really helped by my actual physiotherapist, I feel like I have to just solve it with experimenting and listening to my body.
  • Wednesday I went to the Advanced JS meetup in Amsterdam, because Henrique was there too. Saw an interesting talk by Nimo Beeren about AI models you can access via Javascript in Chrome, and one about generics in Typescript by Dillon Parfitt, which made me focus on a bit more on the of any and generics at work the next day. The pizza was also good.
  • Thursday was the biweekly (fortnightly?) edition of Boardgayming at NDSM, this time themed "Animals". We played a cute simple card game named Super Kawaii Pets, which I loved because it has the same properties as Regenwormen: your actions matter very much for the other players and there's interaction, but if it's not your turn, you don't have to pay attention, which is great for being social during the game. We also played 9 Lives, which made me think of Cat in the Box, since it's also a cat-themed twist on a normal trick taking card game. This twist is also certainly worth it.
  • Youtube recommended me videos about furniture free living, which I think is reasonable now that I saw every barefoot shoe video out there. Since Friday I've been trying to ignore my sofa and just sit on the floor and it's not at all bad. Not removing my sofa from my house yet, but it's an interesting experiment.
  • Saturday my (baby) brother held a dinner party since he's now 25. Time flies.
  • Sunday I ignored most of the world, since it was the day of the Zevenheuvelenloop running event in Nijmegen, which I was really looking forward to. There is unfortunately just no way I can run 15 kilometer yet. I really hope that after next week, in which I will do a lot of massages, I can finally run 100 meters. We will see.

Played

  • Mascarade
  • Spots
  • Super Kawaii Pets
  • 9 Lives
  • Exploding Kittens, original + NSFW expansion

Read

  • Polysecure by Jessica Fern (I feel I am almost at the point where I stopped last time)

Week 14

Last week was crazy.

Happened

  • It was my first full week at work, which involved getting to know my coworkers, getting to know the codebase, writing code and learning how to play table tennis during the breaks, for five days in a row.
  • I also did my normal 'routine' of going to boardgames evenings, going to improv lessons, going to RPG Night, going to my dad. All while trying to still get out of bed at 7:00 again.
  • I didn't really work out that much, but I have to cycle around 40 minutes to work (and back), so I guess I am still active. Well, minus the two times I took the metro home (and back) but hey think about all the calories I would have burned otherwise.
  • Also still tracking calories, and trying to eat enough so that my input matches my output. I think I am close to the point where I can stop doing it again, as I now have a better calibrated feeling for when I should eat and how my body feels if I eat too little.
  • Saturday and Sunday I volunteered at Spellenspektakel in Utrecht, doing back to back explanations of Gay Sauna the boardgame, to a new group approximately every 30 minutes for two days. It was tiring, but a lot of fun, and I would certainly do it again.
  • Oh and wait, I started these weekly notes to track and share progress about my foot. In the previous week I had a bit of pain in my foot in the morning, but I also noticed that it got worse throughout the week. This week I wore the weird sturdy sandal again since Tuesday, on the bike (because pedals give pressure) and for walks longer than 100 meter, and that definitely improved it. I will slowly try to do stuff without it again, but not too fast.

Read

Not really, sorry.

Week 13

A week of coming back, a bit of setback (foot hurts more than I want) and a lot of reading and thinking, but also a new beginning.

Happened

  • On Monday I few back from Gran Canaria to Amsterdam. I wrote a little about how returning to the Netherlands was very alienating to me, probably also because the traveling was really tiring. The days after I tried to recover from it all.
  • Thursday I went to Utrecht to go to the barber (yes) and also visited Subcultures again. This resulted in me buying the Mothership RPG box set, for which I didn't really have budget anymore but hey I love it. Especially the Warden's Operation Manual contains good GM advice for pretty much any game, I can see why this won prices. Can't wait to plan a session (it has been too long).
  • Friday 1 November I started by new job at Atleta. It was mostly installing the laptop and getting to know the team and codebases and then it was already weekend, but it was a good start. Looking forward to dive in more on Monday.
  • Over the week I noticed that every morning, my left (previously broken) foot was hurting. It was fine, as it went away during the day, but by Saturday I noticed that the morning pain did increase. Next week I'm going to make an effort to not walk too much. Mountain climbing on barefoot shoes in Gran Canaria was fun, but maybe not the smartest.
  • Saturday I also visited Eindhoven for the belated birthday party of Henrique, which was at an "All you can eat" restaurant. Since Tuesday I also started to track calories and this made that pretty much impossible for Saturday. But it was a lot of fun!
  • I started the calorie tracking because I suspected I am probably eating too little again. And indeed: this week I really struggled to hit the calorie counts that my Apple Watch said I burned (bearing in mind that "active energy" and "resting energy" are different metrics which you should add up together). I also noticed that in the beginning of the week, I would feel hungry at around -900 kcal, meaning the moment when I burned 900 kcal more than I ate that day. Later on in the week, I started to get hungry when I hit 0, which feels to me much healthier.
  • The other point is that I've been slowly dipping into more and more calisthenics over the past month: I've bought a small notebook and I have been tracking push-ups and other body-weight exercises in it. I can now finally do full push ups: Saturday I did three times three (a month ago I could not do a single one). Eating enough calories and enough protein seems to be important for this. (Thus I should revisit my earlier post about protein chips?)
  • Also did some inner searching by starting to read Polysecure by Jessica Fern again. I don't consider myself poly-amorous, but I have been the loose part of other people's non-monogamy. The "secure" part of the title refers to attachment theory, which I delved into a lot in January and February of this year. It's nice to re-read it in the face of my holiday crush and analyze my reaction to that. Maybe I should write a separate blogpost about it, but before that I need to decide how much of it I actually want to share.
  • Finally: I reduced my time on Youtube significantly compared to pre-Gran Canaria and I try to keep that and replace it all with reading (and writing) more. Honesty makes me confess though: my Instagram time has a bit of an uptick. Nothing is perfect I guess.

Read

  • The Name of the Wind by Patrick Rothfuss (chapters 57-67 on the plane; 68-70 at home)
  • Polysecure by Jessica Fern (started again, introduction and chapters 1 and 2)
  • Mothership Sci-Fi Horror RPG: Player's Survival Guide (full) and Warden's Operation Manual (half)

Listened

  • a podcast about Radical Acceptance by Tara Brach but I can't remember which episode

Ik schreef van de week een stukje over thuiskomen en hoe Nederland eruit ziet ten opzichte van het buitenland. Ergens daarin benoem ik mijn inmiddels jaren oude plan om nog eens een fotoserie te maken. En kijk, daar is NRC:

In mijn hoofd was mijn serie anders, maar door juist op de individuele straatmeubels te focussen pak je wel gelijk de essentie. En ik denk dat de nummer 1 inderdaad de grootste bepaler is in ons straatbeeld – spoiler alert – de 30-bij-30-tegel.

Voor paal

Er staat een paal in de metro. Gewoon, om je aan vast te houden zodat je niet valt als we remmen. Normaal doen mensen twee dingen: zich vasthouden, of de paal negeren.

Net zaten er tegenover me een man en een jongetje. Het jongetje was gefascineerd door de paal, vroeg hij zijn vader of die hem wilde optillen, zodat hij naar beneden kon glijden. ‘That was amazing!’ riep hij toen hij onderaan was, en ik was verbaasd om zijn enthousiasme over die halve seconde, maar ook blij dat hij na één keer al verzadigd was.

Na hen kwam er een stel tegenover me zitten die zo typetjes van Koot en Bie hadden kunnen zijn. Hun manier van doen was aandoenlijk, maar ik probeerde hun gesprek verder niet inhoudelijk te volgen. Toen ze opstonden voor het uitstappen pakte ook de man de paal vast en keek omhoog, alsof hij er in wilde klimmen. Hij lachte erom.

Hoe vreemd, dacht ik, twee afzonderlijke interacties met deze paal, zal ik er een stukje over schrijven? Maar nee, één keer is een incident, twee keer is toeval. Pas bij de derde keer is het een verhaal.

Mijn eigen halte kwam, dus ik sta op, maar de metro remt net iets anders dan ik had verwacht. Gelukkig staat daar de paal, ik pak hem vast en blijf staan. Vanzelfsprekend kijk ik omhoog, naar de plek waar de paal het plafond raakt. Ik zie niets maar glimlach al. Oké paal, jij wint.

Thuiskomen

Ik ben weer in Nederland en na twee weken 26º is dat weer even wennen. Niet dat ik hier per se op het weer wil schimpen. Het is gewoon gek om weer naar Nederland te kijken na twee weken buitenland.

Dat is zegmaar iets wat ik altijd al heb: het idee dat iets aan Nederland anders is, dat je altijd direct herkent dat het Nederland is. Als ik fotograaf zou zijn zou ik daar nog eens een serie over willen maken: foto's in Nederland die niet lijken op Nederland, op zoek naar de essentie van wat maakt dat het er Nederlands uit ziet.

Net zat ik dus in de trein vanaf Schiphol naar de Bijlmer, en op de snelweg zag ik overal gele kentekens. Na twee weken naar (normale) zwart-op-witte kentekens te hebben gekeken vond ik het geel opeens heel schreeuwerig. Normaal betekent eigenlijk vooral gewenning.

Een van de dingen die me in het buitenland altijd zo opvalt is dat het daar vaak vies is. 'In Nederland is het veel schoner,' dacht ik dan. Maar nu stond ik op het station eens om me heen te kijken: eigenlijk is het daar ook gigantisch smerig. Thuis is waar je door gewenning door de viezigheid heen kijkt.

De reis naar Gran Canaria was misschien in een bepaald opzicht ook een manier om onder de wintertijd uit te komen. Ik sta namelijk al twee weken in wintertijd (GMT+1), en de afgelopen zondag was even gek (GMT+0) maar door die tijd niet te veel mijn hoofd in te laten gaan kwam het goed. Zoals het klokje daar tikte, tikt het hier nu ook.

Maar thuiskomen is ook je huis weer zien – denken 'jemig wat heb ik dit toch gek ingericht' – om vervolgens na anderhalf uur weer berusting te voelen in de manier hoe het is. Thuiskomen is ook gewoon weer wennen aan de dingen die thuis 'normaal' maken.

Week 12

Second and last week on Gran Canaria. It’s been nice, with reasonable recovery of my foot, so I have been quite active.

Happened

  • As I walked way too much last week, I tried a day at the apartment complex on Monday. I’ve only been out for some groceries and dinner, which I kept close too. Just sitting next to the pool and reading a book is indeed very relaxing. I struggle with it because “I could do this at home” and I could and should, but it was good for my foot and mind to take a break.
  • On Tuesday, I finally got the car I reserved way too late. I drove it across the island through the mountains, to a highest point of around 1750 meters, but with a lot of climbing in between. I wrote a long Dutch blogpost about this.
  • I also got out halfway to climb up to Roque Nublo. This I did record, so I know I reached the rock in 22 minutes, passing by a lot of families with children. The whole trip is on Strava (which I should still import onto this site).
  • Wednesday I still had the car and went to a “Waterfall trail” I found on the internet. Very nice hike with less children, more challenge, but still very doable. I did both of these hikes on the barefoot shoes without the soles in, making me feel every surface along the route, which was very nice, but still with protection from the sharp rocks.
  • Thursday was a bit of a rest day. Friday as well: not walking much and trying out the swimming pool, the beach and the weird machines they had at the hotel gym (I discovered the assisted dips machine and it was good).
  • Actually, I’ve been working out in that gym every odd day of the holidays. As I said before: after my foot broke, I noticed I had no power in my arms at all. I’m changing that now.
  • Saturday I went to the airport to get a new car, and I reserved an Opel Corsa this time, so I would hopefully fit. There was a very long queue in front of the office, which in the end took me 1 hour and 47 minutes to get through. Turns out they were completely overbooked and were just handing cars out as they came in downstairs. I got a much more luxurious SEAT Arona for the same price.
  • Saturday, I drove the Arona to the highest peak of the island. It was cloudy and windy, however, so I have not actually been to the highest point: I did not dare to leave the car and there wouldn’t have been anything to see anyway. It was interesting to drive around in the clouds. I also visited Teror, which was cold and reminded me of Dutch summers.
  • Sunday I drove around the island, following the eastern road to the north and then back via the highway on the west, back to my apartment in the south. Then after a final visit to the gym, I went through the middle to Fataga for a last hike. The Arona is much too big for my taste, but it was very fast compared to my Volkswagen Up, and the carplay was very pleasant.
  • (Writing this on the airport but hey, today is a new week!)

Playlist

Most of these tracks are here because I Shazammed them in a bar. Isabel Pantoja is there twice because of the drag lipsync performance I saw. Japanese 90s was just something I needed.

  • Sinceramente - Annalisa
  • ZORRA - Nebulossa
  • Hoy Quiero Confesarme - Isabel Pantoja
  • Marinero de Luces - Isabel Pantoja
  • I Will Go With You (Con Te Partiró) - Donna Summer
  • ラブ・ストーリーは突然に (Sudden Love Story) - Kazumasa Oda

Read

  • The Name of the Wind by Patrick Rothfuss (chapters 37-56, all on the island)

Nu ik meer blog ben ik ook beter mijn RSS-reader bij aan het houden. Of ja, was, want ik ben nu op vakantie en dan gaat het minder.

Sowieso lukt het me wel om de korte posts of de minder interessante dingen te lezen of op gelezen te zetten. Het probleem zijn de net iets grotere blogposts, waar ik echt even tijd voor wil nemen om te lezen. Die blijven dus liggen.

En zo staat de teller van de RSS-reader nu boven de honderd. Want hoe meer vakantie, hoe korter te posts die ik wel lees, en dus hoe meer blijft liggen wat interessant lijkt voor later.

Ik ben trouwens wel best ver in mijn boek. Dat is ook wat waard.

Rijden op Gran Canaria

Mijn wekelijkse notities lopen een beetje uit de hand omdat ik er allemaal dingen over autorijden op Gran Canaria in wil zetten, dus hierbij een losse post erover.

Sinds iets meer dan drie jaar heb ik nu een rijbewijs. Het was covid die me over de streep duwde, en sindsdien ben ik van volledig anti-auto opgeschoven naar een hypocriet die wel vindt dat de benzine zo duur mogelijk moet zijn om het te ontmoedigen, maar dan toch bij de Tango staat te tanken.

Ik heb al wel een paar keer een busje gehuurd voor verhuizingen, maar dit was de eerste keer dat ik met een huurauto een vakantieomgeving verken. Stiekem is dat altijd een droom geweest: vroeger hadden we altijd vakantieauto’s en samen met je vriend over een eiland rijden klinkt mij erg romantisch. Bij gebrek daaraan dan maar alleen het eiland verkennen.

De auto

De instapauto die ik bij Cicar kon huren was de Fiat 500. Prima, ik heb zelf een Volkswagen Up en ik hou van kleine auto’s: voelt efficiënt en makkelijker parkeren. Wat ik echter niet had gedacht is dat ik met mijn 2,02 meter niet in een Fiat 500 pas. Gelukkig zat er een dakraam in en vond ik een stand van de stoel, de spiegels en mijn hoofd dat het allemaal net kon, maar super veilig voelde het niet.

De eerste meters waren heel ruw. Zie je wel, dacht ik, had R. toch gelijk toen hij me een beginnende bestuurder noemde. Maar gelukkig wende de koppeling al snel. Ik ben tot twee keer toe een beetje vastgeparkeerd en een paar keer moest ik ergens keren midden op de weg… ik vond zelf dat ik me daar met een soepelheid uitmanoevreerde die verraad dat ik nogal wat kilometers heb gemaakt (meer dan 80k).

Terug naar de veiligheid: ik kwam er op een bepaald moment achter dat ik wel leuk over mijn schouder aan het kijken was bij het afslaan, maar dat de dakstijl middenin mijn dode hoek zat. Met andere woorden: mijn stoel stond zo ver naar achteren dat de rand van de deur precies naast mijn hoofd zat. Een volledige witte Volkswagen Golf verdween in het ding. Sindsdien ben ik steeds maar wat naar voren gegaan tijdens de schouder-check, maar een beetje schrikken was het dus wel.

Het dakraam was trouwens wel heerlijk en eigenlijk geen overbodige luxe voor lange mensen: eindelijk kon ik het stoplicht boven mijn hoofd zien als ik vooraan stond, zonder de lamme nek van helemaal over je stuur moeten buigen. Volume op het stuur ga ik missen, maar dat ik wel een Siri-knopje had, maar toch zelf het dimlicht aan en uit moest zetten vond ik een beetje vreemd.

Ergens was het ook wel een gerustgevende gedachte, zo’n huurauto. Als ik weer ergens totaal verdwaald was, dacht ik: ach, deze Fiat is hier eerder geweest, het komt vast wel goed. Al moet ik zeggen dat hij niet al te veel zelfkennis had: op sommige wegen gaf hij steeds aan dat ik omhoog moest schakelen, om in de hogere versnelling vervolgens langzaam te toeren weg te zien zakken. Nog nooit zo veel beide metertjes gebruikt!

De wegen

Het wende wel, maar het is even wennen, en helemaal gewend ben ik het nog steeds niet. Het Nederlandse verkeersnet heeft zijn eigen “taal van de weg”, zoals mijn rijinstructeur het noemde, en die taal is redelijk consistent en duidelijk. Hier is dat allemaal totaal anders: de vormen van de pijlen, de kleuren van de borden, de voorrangsstrepen. Ik heb nogal oog voor detail en alle details zijn anders hier.

Specifiek de combinatie van rotondes, heuvels en het ontbreken van een telefoonhouder maakte dat ik diverse keren de verkeerde afslag heb genomen. In Nederland zetten we als het even kan op elke windrichting één afslag. Hier zijn er soms een hele kant lang geen en dan drie kort achter elkaar. Pak je de verkeerde? Dan rij je een heuvel op in plaats van af en moet je echt verderop ergens keren anders kom je nooit meer waar je wilde zijn.

Het onderhoud valt me heel erg mee: het zijn mooie wegen en toen ik de eerste dag recht door het eiland stak viel het me op dat de hele GC-60 van mooi nieuw asfalt was voorzien. Natuurlijk, hoe meer je de ‘grote’ wegen af gaat hoe smaller de weggetjes worden, met scherpe bochten en avontuurlijk rijden. Maar ik heb me qua wegkwaliteit nooit onveilig gevoeld.

Wat me ook opviel is dat de afritbordjes die ik uit Duitsland ken hier ook zijn: drie strepen voor 300 meter, twee strepen voor 200, één streep voor 100 en dan is daar de afslag. Als dat inderdaad een onderdeel is van de Europese taal van de weg, vind ik eigenlijk dat we hier een leenwoord van moeten maken.

De regels

Het viel me al op toen ik in de airporttransfer naar mijn appartementje zat: sommige mensen rijden 60 op de snelweg waar je 120 mag. Het is een driebaansweg en ook de bus bleef op de middelste hangen, waarschijnlijk om dit soort idioten te vermijden. Thuis is er de ongeschreven regel dat je altijd de maximumsnelheid plus een beetje rijdt. Ik denk dat je voor 60 op de snelweg ook keihard een boete kan krijgen.

Een ander ding: politieagenten hebben hier altijd blauw licht aan staan, ook als ze geen haast hebben. Dan knippert het niet en is het meer zo van ‘we zijn er hoor’. Ik vond het erg verwarrend. Maar ook: er was een ambulance die daadwerkelijk zwaailicht voerde, dus ik deed mijn best om een beetje aan de kant te gaan, langzamer te gaan rijden, zodat hij er langs kon. Ik bleek te enige te zijn, zelfs de ambulance leek niet te anticiperen dat-ie er langs kon, wat voor mij een beetje een gevaarlijke situatie veroorzaakte. Note to self: negeer alle blauwe lichten hier.

En er was ergens een rood licht waar ik rechts wilde. Erboven was een extra lamp met een flitsende oranje pijl naar rechts. Meerdere auto’s haalden me in en gingen rechts, gewoon door rood, wat mij het vermoeden gaf dat dat de bedoeling was? Note to self: negeer ook alle rode lichten als er een oranje pijl knippert.

En dan de snelheidslimiet nog een keer. Ik ben gewend aan de standen die we in Nederland kennen. Hier is het een onaflatende afwisseling van 40 naar 30 naar 40 naar 20 naar 40 naar 60 naar 80. Ik geloof dat ik beter de tientallen op kan noemen die ik niet op een bordje heb zien staan: 10, 90 en 110. Note to self: laat de bordjes los en rij wat goed voelt.

Alvast sorry voor iedereen die ik straks in Nederland op de weg tegenkom.

Week 11

I am on Gran Canaria since monday, so these notes will be shorter. Days are intentionally blurry.

Happened

  • Had a holiday crush, but he left already, and he didn’t see any chance for us back in The Netherlands. This makes that I’ll enter my second week a bit sad, but I will survive.
  • All in all, I walked a lot. And with that I really mean a lot. The first day of 11km was already above average for me since I broke my foot, but after that I have never been below 12.5km, with three days close to 19km. The total is 106km.
  • Every day I try to keep walking to a minimum, but sitting in the hotel is terribly boring. I discovered the busses at some point (and the fact that they accept Apple Pay) but I still don’t seem to manage to keep the kilometers down. Even today when I tried to do everything by bus I managed to hit 10km.
  • My foot feels fine during the day, but and every morning it is a bit swollen and the first steps are very sore. Again: I really try to take more rest. Next week I’ll have a car for some days and I hope that helps the recovery while still being able to see the island.

Read

  • The Name of the Wind by Patrick Rothfuss (chapters 27-36, mostly on the plane)

Week 10

It's week 10 and I ran again, for a very short distance but still. In the beginning of the week there was pain every morning, which I could get rid of by massaging and stretching, but at the end my foot feels mostly fine.

Happened

  • On Monday I visited the physiotherapist again. He was 15 minutes late, yet ended our session at the normal time. He placed two tapes on my foot and gave me a new exercise. I really don't believe the tape helps at all, which means I also won't get the placebo effect from it, so when he said to schedule a new appointment in three weeks I just didn't. I'll massage and feel my way out of this myself.
  • Improvisation class is still going on every Tuesday evening. Last week I totally locked down during an exercise where we had to interrupt someone else's monologue by repeating two of their words and starting our own monologue. I just couldn't find good spots to interrupt, and when there was one, I was thinking too deep about it and therefore missed my chances. This week there was an exercise where there would be two characters on stage, but four performers, who would swap roles on the cues "inside" and "outside". It went great. Last week I felt very stupid, this week I felt like I could actually learn this improv thing.
  • Wednesday I first visited the Miró exposition in Beelden aan Zee with my stepmom and then visited by dad together. When having coffee at the museum we sat at the exact spot where I sad with my dad for (I believe) the last time we went to a museum together. Apart from the emotional undertone it's a nice museum with interesting sculptures.
  • Wednesday I also noticed how the balance of my left foot improved, so I tested it. It was very boring, but I made it to 7:35 minutes on my previously broken foot. There is still soreness every morning but we're getting closer and closer to being healed fully.
  • Also started walking a lot more this week, by just going for walks, by walking parts of routes I would've cycled (if I had the time) and by getting off one or two metro stations earlier and walk the last bit. The vast majority of these walks are on barefoot shoes, as I really exclusively wear those, but since this week I also have a pair of the Altra Escalante shoes, which are basically barefoot shoes (wide toe box, zero drop), but with cushioning, to make some of the walks easier.
  • Friday and Saturday there were boardgames: Friday evening there was a boardgame evening at work, also functioning partly as my goodbye, and Saturday I went to the Boardgayming XL event. I played Tokyo Highway at both of them, but also others: there is again a small list of games below this post.
  • Saturday evening A. and I were trying to catch the metro, so I ran 50 meters to still get it. It went well, and I don't think it was too risky: I had the cushioned Altra shoes on and I did not go all out. Also: 50 meters is very manageable. I will try more walks next week, and maybe 100 meters running?

Played

  • Codenames: Pictures
  • Perudo
  • Regenwormen
  • Tokyo Highway: Rainbow City
  • Eternitium
  • Let's Call the Exorcist
  • Speculaas
  • The Dick Sits
  • For the Queen

Watched

  • House of Cards (rewatching)

How I blog in multiple languages

Henrique is forcing me into participating in this collective blogging event called the "IndieWeb Carnival", this time hosted by ZinRicky. This month's topic is "Multilingualism in a Global Web", but I'll just write a bit about my own use of different languages on this site and on social media.

Let's start with the languages I speak. I am native Dutch and I am fairly fluent in English. I also understand some Japanese as I have been self studying on and off for over 15 years now. According to my middle school diploma I also know French and German, and I indeed proved to be able to have some basic conversations in Essen this weekend, but my French is really a withered plant at the moment. I did a Swedish course for beginners around 2011 and even though I still know some words, sentences and intonations, I have just removed it from my LinkedIn profile because a recruiter reached out to me regarding a Swedish speaking job offer I am neither interested in nor qualified for. I also have Duolingo "my cat is an apple" proficiency in Spanish, Italian, Ukrainian and Russian. On parties without too many language nerds I dare to say "name any language and I'll know a fact about it," because this is true for most languages normal people would mention.

Then about this blog: I started writing exclusively in Dutch, as that is my native language. When I "joined" the IndieWeb, I started writing posts that were relevant to an IndieWeb audience in English, as I knew only one person on the IndieWeb who understood Dutch at the time. Since I broke my foot 9 weeks ago, I started weekly notes and somehow I started those in English (probably mostly because the week notes I read in my RSS reader are all in English too, so it felt part of the genre.)

Thus, previously I had the distinction "IndieWeb is English, rest is Dutch", then it moved to "personal is Dutch, rest is English", but now I also gone away with that. I guess it's now just "however I feel like it". There is also the thing that I care less about the audience for my Dutch posts, so maybe I write English for others and Dutch for myself?

As for social media: I have separate Dutch and English Twitter accounts, both being inactive due to someone buying the platform. I also have a "Seb leert Zweeds" account, on which I posted short and badly written Swedish tweets back in the day. The Twitter distinction of Dutch and English was also: Dutch for random thoughts, personal stuff, English for being professional, following mostly web developers and tech accounts.

I don't know exactly what to say about multilingualism on the bigger web. I read whatever I can read, which comes down to both Dutch and English (Japanese is already too hard to read if it's not on NHK News Web Easy). I sometimes write my posts in Dutch with the idea that people who are interested will use a translator app, but I am also aware that I never really do that when I read myself.

I do mark all my posts with a language, so that they show up in the proper feeds. People can therefore subscribe to only my English posts and skip the Dutch. This would've made more sense if I was more strict about the topic within each language, I assume, but hey I am not writing this for money... this is a personal blog.

Proteïnechips

Ik liep net in de supermarkt langs het proteïneschap. Waarschijnlijk wel bekend: het schap vol snoeprepen en poeders met hoge eiwitgehaltes dijt de laatste tijd steeds verder uit. Ik ben ook schuldig, moet ik zeggen, want de marketing heeft me laten geloven dat ik na een rondje hardlopen zo'n snoepreep moet eten om beter te herstellen.

Maar vandaag zag ik dus helemaal onderin het schap een zak proteïnechips liggen. En dat vind ik best ver gaan. Volgens mij zijn er twee manieren om chips te eten: netjes in een bakje op tafel met vrienden, of in je eentje met de zak op de bank. Hoewel dit natuurlijk een beetje van je vriendengroep afhangt, denk ik dat deze zak meer bedoeld is voor alleen op de bank. Bankhangen als ultieme beloning na hard werken, maar dan in een variant waar je je minder slecht over voelt.

Vanuit de supermarkt gezien snap ik het ook wel: het kost waarschijnlijk niet zo heel veel om de weipoeder die toch al in sommige chips wordt gebruikt wat op te schroeven,[^1] net genoeg om de claim waar te maken; maar de prijs kan wel omhoog.

Biologisch eten is ook duurder, maar helaas groeit het proteïneschap vooralsnog harder. Meer betalen voor een goed gevoel werkt kennelijk nog altijd beter als het gaat om een voordeel voor jezelf.

[]: Paprikachips zijn niet vegan, want weipoeder komt uit koemelk.

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